很闲的啦

每次都给我这种烂理由


芭比到死！


如果你跟我说你要做东西 还能接受

算了吧


我也不勉强了

一年前 一年后

一年前

一年后

很多事情都不一样了

曾经 被你认定是最后一个的我

已经不在你身边

很多的朋友 以前聊的疯狂

现在只是淡淡地说 hi

到最后得到的和失去的一样多

我想 有时念念旧应该不错

不过也是时候 看看现在

不要再常常放大那些已经逝去的

看回一年前 庆生的点滴

其实我一直都很幸福

看看今年的庆生

虽然没有以往的热闹 狂欢

虽然梦寐已久的21岁庆生

在一个不开心的晚餐下结束

可是

因为那一天很爽的按摩

因为那二十五粒小蛋糕

因为我的新手表

其实都开心了整个礼拜

原来 快乐可以很简单

慢慢删除以前中。。。

跑着步 下着雨

='[

乱来

喜欢


都爱乱来

有时 缘分很对

有时乱来得

把不在对方条件的两个人凑在一起

然后

到最后

感觉用尽了

现实还是现实

Christmas day

圣诞节

是我在很多个节日中 最喜欢的一个

喜欢出去报佳音的感觉

喜欢在教堂高歌圣诞歌的感觉

喜欢他的浪漫

喜欢它带来的欢乐和温馨的气氛

虽然今年在家简单的倒数

可是感觉也没很差 反而蛮开心的



每一年的圣诞

我都会梦想着

在欧洲看到的那些大教堂

唱圣诞歌

应该真的很不错对吧


大家圣诞节快乐

很快就要迎来 新的一年了！

享受2010的最后几天吧







it's Christmas in my heart when i am with you （ this song kept repeating in my mind )

yay!!

yay! 今天早上 真的是睡到饱 才起身！！

太开心啦！！！

整整一个月 每天都在拼命的啃书

晚上担心的睡不好

考完了那张 头脑里头 又是一直梦到formula

的那种压抑心情真是不好受

每天都读啊 赶啊 真的很累

终于可以好好享受了！

真是苦尽甘来！
哈哈哈

今天是圣诞节前夕

很开心 也很遗憾

开心的是 又能享受我很喜欢的圣诞节

虽然今年有没得去报佳音 aih...

还是开心啦

遗憾的是 我只能透着电脑 感染一下

圣诞节的气氛

这种时候 就是会很懊恼

为什么我没带车来！

哈哈

算了吧

该享受的东西

自然有一天会到

我永远都相信

勉强是没有幸福的！

等等我要去看我的nanoscience

midterm test 的卷纸

真的是有够不甘愿

为什么我会拿那么低分！

希望老师真的改错

加我多一点点得分

我也爽

哈哈！

好啦 说到这吧

早上

很久都没这么早起
虽然 今天也不是什么心甘情愿的起来
因为要读书
可是心情也不差

冰冷的早上
凉凉的
让人觉得很舒服
就是很喜欢这种感觉=]

我本身不是什么早起的人
在这四年里
早期的原因
不可能是早睡什么的
不是因为有考试 在早期读书
不然等死在考场
要不就 是还没睡
才有这种机会 享受这一切
哈哈
当时的我也没享受到吧
我这个大睡猪！！

希望今晚的考试能顺利

大家也一样
尤其是这个礼拜有三科 midterm test 的
真是保重了！

我两科都要疯了
不知道他们是怎么度过的
可能很多也可能拿mc瓜

是不错的出路啦


说着说着
肚子有点饿tim
无奈

好啦 说到这

我要疯了

明天考ecp 我看我又是要升天堂了

到现在还没看完第三课

完了完了

我的天啊。。。。。

明天又有lab

那里有时间读喔

希望能pass

天啊。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。



与此同时

。。。。。


我的心开始飘到三天后的圣诞节了。。。

哈哈！

我想今年的圣诞 应该是在家蹲马桶了

susu 和 sam 去云顶看abba

鹤翔 跟RO 疯癫

不然 就是跟bubu疯癫

廷毅 忙到 他姓张都不记得了

哈哈！ 这个好笑

所以列。。。。。。

我想我还是开始物色什么好料戏

在家看的是

或者顺便 来个 圣诞加汤圆大餐也不错

来补回 没有汤圆的冬至

写blog的心情又回来了

哈哈 开心咯

在这里乱写什么是最好的啦

都没人看 我看以后如果要练忍功

来这边修炼修炼是不错的

我看 我是的疯了

说一大堆有的没的


回去读书啦。。。。。

晕。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

他們並不是不愛對方了，而是不能給對方各自要的生活。

又或者相遇的再晚一點，晚到兩個人在各自的愛情經歷中慢慢學會了包容和體諒，善待和妥協。




我們為自己設了個圈，自己繞阿繞的，總也出不了這個圈。

陌生

我和你
到最后 都变成了 陌生人

不想这样
可是 情况只允许我们这样

有一天 可能
我只会在你脑海里的小角落
被遗忘 被淹没

不过 可能 也是应该的吧

人都是很现实
喜欢的时候 捧在手心
不喜欢的时候 客套的一句 都觉得多余

曾经那么轰轰烈烈的追求
现在 连什么都不是了

无奈

转身就走了

很多时候 我都会犹豫
我是否做错了决定
东想 西想了一大堆
然后 很后悔
可是 到最后
想想 我不想每一天都在家担心
他又是跟那个女生出去了
其实 决定没有很错啦。。

我也不知道
想这么多来干嘛
反正他是不可能会回头了
只能一直往前看
对吗？

所以呢
每次犹豫
我都会找现在算说的上话的几位
聊个什么

哈哈
最后最后
他们一定会说一句
只要不是跟会他 跟谁都行

其实 我不知道为什么
他们对他会有那么深的看法
我们之间的事
我一字都不提
只是说过
我们分开拉

奇怪

算了吧

努力一点读书
没有多少时间了
要补回
不简单

加油！

獨家記憶

很喜欢这首歌

以前常常会听到淑清开着 小小声地唱着

很久过后

我听到他唱这首歌

真的很好听 =]

但不知道 是什么变了

再也听不到那个声音了

怀念。。。

headache

The feeling of headache is never pleasant. All thanks to the 6/7 cups of red wine yesterday i had at the wedding dinner. Honestly, I seldom attend wedding dinner due to many reasons. But yesterday I have finally attend another one which is my neighbor's wedding.

Basically the whole table only three of them I knew which is my dad, bro and my another neighbor. Later came this 5 uncles and one auntie joining our table. Guess that all those uncles were all drinkers. All of them drank at least 2 glasses of wine. Another uncle was mixing stout, red wine and tiger beer all the way. Luckily the Martel was not in his hand if not I dun think he get to drive back yesterday night. haha!

Seriously I have not intended to drink a lot but the waitress at the dinner was way too kind. Before I even notice my glass is again filled with red wine. So I just drank along.... haha those uncles were quite astonish with the number of glasses I have drank. Thanks to dad stopping me if not i think bro have to drag me home cos when I was heading to the car I was feeling rather tipsy already.

Back to home, worse to come. Feeling heavy headed and all the uncomfortable feelings. After taking bath I straight went to bed. This morning got up with aftermath of the liquor effects. wtf........ slept right after I had my breakfast and took freaking lots of glasses of green tea. Thank god I am okay now and gotta continue my studies for final. woohoo

lots to go... sien lar

续 错

错

人是应该常常反省的没错

可是 有多少人能认清自己的所作所为

何谓错？ 何谓对？

我想每个人都需要一个

能引导自己的一个伴

可是

除了父母

还有谁

会愿意

做这样的差事

不简单

所以 不是每个人能拥有

如果身边有了

这样一个

能提点你的不是的人

虽然 抱怨是在前头

但最后 感激是必须的

流沙

并不是真的路过而已
也不是真的我不想你
全部不是真的
是骗自己
其实还爱你
爱着你
我以为我早想清楚
不由自主恍恍惚惚又走回头路
再看一眼有过得幸福
爱情好像流沙我不挣扎
随它去吧 我不害怕
爱情好像流沙
心理的牵挂
不愿放下
让我这样吧

错

人要常常自我反省 才会进步

Morib

Things at Morib really change.

no little crabs
no kites
no bubbles
no little kids around

but ure still there
without me.

=]

let it be.





***faster do assignment lor!!!! haih siennn

same people same cinema different feeling

but I don't really know how I felt exactly.

we no longer play basketball machine while waiting for the show to start

instead, we were looking at movie board separately

we no longer drink F&N grape / ice lemon tea

instead, we got ourselves a new combo that free a 100 plus bottle

when I see him I dun see him like how I used to be

at some points I even felt we are going out for the first time

Does thing really change?

or it is because we do not hang out for quite some time already?

please dun mess with me

Please dun mess with me people!
I am sick and stress here and I totally do not have time with your nonsense
so please do not expect me to reply u nicely where u did not do the same thing to me either
Fyi, for those who think they are the first one who kena, you are obviously not.
Show some respect please


*short temper mode turned on*

七月十四

又是七月十四了
现在的我 在炎热的大太阳 做功课
也emo着。。。

很想念外婆。。。

谁能给我一点安慰？

算了吧

只有自己能让自己开心

开心点吧 =]

读书加油！

stress AGAIN

Seriously I din't sleep very early last night but got up this early in the morning stress-ing. So many due date to meet for this two weeks. Feeling sick, stress and every single bad feelings in this world. hahaha not that exaggerate lar... But really did not sleep well last night. Coughing for the whole night - regretting... Looking all the due date... omfg....... HAIH... HOW TO MEET THEM LAR!!!! emo...

续：生病了

果然 每个人看着同样的事会有不同的想法

一个很开心的祝福说道:你终于找到这样的一个人

一个却说:怎么又生病了，多照顾自己

看的东西一样 可看到的东西却截然不同

有人能做到控制别人看到他们想让他们看的吗？

生病了

我承认我是一个超级不管自己健康的人，我在一个sem生病的次数有时真的多得可怕。今天我又生病了。昨天其实已经有预兆了可是我又是没什么管，结果今天真的大病。无奈。从昨晚我开始睡到现在才醒，一整天都被我浪费掉了，大叹气。。。。
幸好今天有位好先生打包给我吃， 不然我看我晕死在床都没人懂因为整个家只剩我一个人孤零零的蹲着。

我看我要振作一点，好好的去运动，早睡什么的，可别败掉爸妈给我那么健全的身体。


下次再聊吧

打喷嚏中。。。

时机

其实很多事情需要时机
感情
友谊
职场上

遇到对的人
不对的时机
也是浪费

我遇过很多很想深交的朋友
可是时机都不对
认识了很久 但每次只能 轻轻的问候

最近 认识了新朋友
不算新吧
只是最近开始觉得说得上真话
少了很多平时的废话

他说 我们现在才是真正开始聊天
可我说 没有了那些废话 不会有今天的我们

***

六月十四号 那天
我认识了他

一路走来
我很感激

wallet

Sales is everywhere. Wallet is on sales too. I have been hunting a nice black wallet since quite some time ago but anyhow none of it caught my eye. Yesterday I went out again and saw this black wallet which I think it is nice and simple that everyone would like it. It is on sales too. I thought for a very long time to buy or not to buy because deep down I know that I am not in the position to buy. At the end.... huhuhu

stress

Its week 10 already. I starting to feel the stress of final exams. Never like this feeling but no stress no motivation this is what I always thought to be so. Tonight having Etm midterm test hopefully everything goes well =]

Even though I can't say that this semester its a super sad or a super happy semester for myself. There are things I have gained and lost but overall I think should feel happy and contented for what I am having now. Those that I have lost, sometimes it is not that it doesnt mean anything anymore, it is just something you cant do anything with it. What will be will be I guess.

=D

情人的眼淚

小时候，外婆常常喜欢唱这首歌。
坐在门边，感受着凉凉的风，唱着

为什么要对你掉眼泪
难道你不明白是为了爱
要不是有情人 跟我要分开
我眼泪不会掉下来 掉下来

虽然 那时的我不知道 什么是爱
可是 却感受到 她歌声中的凄凉。。

15th August 2010

For quite some times I din't post anything new here. Last post was kinda emo I guess but hey! I am 'A' okay so don't worry lar kay =D Nothing much happen actually. Just passed my crazy week of 3 midterms and 3 lab session. Still having the last paper -- ETM on Tuesday. sien... I din't touch anything at all because yesterday went out for almost the whole day and today procrastinate the whole afternoon. HAHA!

Yesterday was a very important day.


多的是 你不知道的事
何时才能找到我的 伯牙


hmmmm.... till the next time..

来不及

我来不及将你的手紧紧握着
对你说我只想要我们能快乐
我曾以为少了你的陪伴不算什么
怎么我微笑着心却是痛的
我来不及将记忆中的你消除了
我明白错过的从此难以负荷
如果眼泪能够证明我是爱你的
那么重新选择是不是来不及了



我还是来不及了

我学会了

我学会了
放慢脚步
看看身边的人
珍惜点点滴滴


很谢谢你 =]





***

你的不开心 并不于我
我很明白

其实我很饿

可是我不敢说

end of the road

you ask me if i love you

i choke on my reply







p/s : 因为太了解 所以很讨厌

actually why we have to ask why?

actually why we have to ask why?













izzit every question have a motive behind?

or we just ask for the sake of asking?


Am seriously no idea.

Im very glad

I am proudly announcing that I still have take my bath at this very moment. I am still wearing my grey jeans and white t shirt since this morning =S

Just had a very long and content-ful conversation with both of my housemate. It is been a long time I guess that we haven't REALLY talk and share things together.

I have finally know what I really want. Two years of playing and wasting time somehow worthy? hahaha sarcasticlly i presume. Now all I hope for is to study well - pass my degree. Hoping in the process I would get to find the one that we have same objective to strive on and we can hang on with each other whenever we need. Together we succeed and we enjoy life with each other companion. Anyhow, study come first. If you wan to go - just go.

p/s : waiting for the one. Ain't want to slack anymore.

恋情必须经过四个阶段

第一个阶段：共存
这是热恋期间，情人不论何时何地总希望能黏在一起。

第二个阶段：反依赖
等到情感稳定后，至少会有一方想要有多一点自己的时间做自己想做的事，这时另一方就会感到被冷落。

第三个阶段：独立
这是第二个阶段的延续，要求更多独立自主的时间。

第四个阶段：共生
这时新的相处之道已经成形，你的他/她已经成为你最亲的人。你们在一起相互扶持，一起开创属于你们自己的人生。你们在一起不会互相牵绊，而会互相成长。

但是，大部分的人都通过不了第二和第三阶段，而选择分手，这是非常可惜的。

很多事只要好好沟通都会没事的，不要耍个性，不要想太多，要互相信任，这样，第二和第三阶段的时间就会缩短。

和所爱的人相遇相恋是非常不容易的，不要轻言放弃

I don't know what am I doing right here right now

Seriously I do not what am I doing right here right now.

Supposingly I should be doing assignment which is due on today 11.59am.

They say people are always selfish. Yes I realised it last night and undeniably I was very sad and disappointed. But at the end when I saw the conversation box pop up I eventually forget about it and was even delighted with the apology. Maybe I should say my head is short circuit or hay wired where the equation of --- sorry > 5 marks lab is actually proven correct in my brain. The simplest explanation is already satisfied me.

But the exactly same situation happens on the next day where my position and the other party turn around. But I think I am not forgiven and yeah I know it from a very long time ago you will remember every black dot of mine. But truthfully, I am sorry.








Sometimes, I think... Anyway, haih. its okay afterall.

Midterm Break

yay~ ( -__________- )

This would be my expression for the rest of the midterm break. why? **Yay** its because that it is holiday again!! no boring classes, no boring routine, back to my home, my comfy bed & get to see dad and bro =D ( the thing i anticipate the most!! yeepee~ ) But why -____________- ?? All thanks to my lecturerssss. First of all there are 3 midterms paper right after the break followed with 2 assignments due and a lab report to be passed up on the same week. wtf? =S

Even how I still get to squeeze out sometime to meet all my hometown friends ... hmmm.. perhaps no lar. six only i presumed? hahahaha Luckily still get to catch up with cw and Joel at Joe's birthday. Surprisingly I met tok tok chiang, victor and .... errr... ah! ah mui! They are my secondary juniors. Had lotsa fun talking to them and got to know many *sampat* hometown latest news. Thumbs up to the great stalker of all time ----- CW!! * Tada~~ *

Basically, nothing much happen at hometown. Everyday got up pretty late, kacau my brother which I LOVE very much, sleep, eat, laze, do homeworks & study.................. Anyhow, today I have finally cut my fringe and get to do my spec =D hee hee.

Pretty excited about tomorrow's outing with Joe! hahahaha INCEPTION here I come ~~~~ weeee~~ I am so looking forward to our * ji mui/gf-bf * talk. Seriously, its been 5 years since the time we know each other and I never really regret about it. Bitter sweet I would say along these years. They might not understand us but its okay =] Thanks for everything, Joe - bf - jimui =]

At last, Joe,

happy 21st birthday

He told me : life is short, so make it sweet.

delete

I have to learn to delete it from my mind after counting 10.

1
2
3
4
5
6
7
8
9
10

It going to take another year i guess.


Time heals everything. But this is the time that it seems to be moving slower.......

The Last Song

"Sometimes we have to be apart from people you love but that doesn't mean that you love them any less. Sometimes it even make sure you love them more ...."

Raining

Oh no~~~ it's raining again. It is not raining actually hahahah but the sky start to get real dark. Thunder somemore.. my god. From the lesson I have learnt before I shouldn't *pandai pandai* walk to class. Guess I haven't share my experience at here before. So okay, its like that....

It happened last Wednesday if I am not mistaken, it was drizzling so I think should be okay for me to walk to school since I have an umbrella and yeah! it was just drizzling!! hahaha But I think I have overly undermine the power of mother nature which was quite obvious when it started to rain so damn heavily that drench me completely. My whole trousers are freakingly wet and inside my shoes are totally flooded. Luckily I still managed to reach FOE, wishing that there will be a dryer or what in the toilet. Disappointed, no at all!!! *#&^!@&%#(&@$!(&#

When I was thinking how am I going to attend the class I suddenly remembered that my friend say that today is 3 o'clock class where I thought it to be 2 o'clock class!!! Totally devastated. At that point, I do not know who to turn to. I think I have overly dependent on someone too much because all I can think of is to find him. But, at the end I still did not. Anyhow he can't help me at all and I do not want to trouble him at all. So, I walked back again, got change and started to chat at msn. Feeling blissful - people around cares about me =] hahaha I know its totally a small matter lar but I still feel happy that there are friends around that concern about me =D

Seriously, thank you very much.

feeling kinda regret for sleeping at such (early/late) last night damn sleepy weyyyy my god..

ok lar that is all for today.

By the way, it did not rain at all!!! bloody hell!!! *#&$^*@#&^!@*&#^

its been very long ...

Its been a very long time I din write anything new after I deleted all the posts. Guess I will be start writing again cos days seems to be wasted if I din't get to jot down any bit of my life. hahahah what a reason?! LOL

hmmm.. firstly, I guess I am happy with what I am having now and the ***HEALTHY LIFESTYLE*** I am leading ( though I slept around 4 to 6 am sometimes.. hahaha ). Days seems to be much more simpler. I don't feel like vomiting anymore and my appetite getting better and better each day! ( miss A2-10-5 please don't call me GOD again!! grr ) but I starting to worry about my size again... my god.. * control control!!! *

Anyhow something surprise me is - I actually following a dull routine everyday!!! hahaha! seriously I am not those kind of people who likes routine zzz I will go crazy if I ever follow that for... hmmmm... 2 weeks?! hahaha LOL maybe this is the effect of being 21 years old?! ROFL. Days with classes - chatting - facebook - pps - study - and ..... - then sleep!! But then ar... evenhow once in a while out from Cyberjaya Smart home is a must lar.. if not i can really die in my room. the sienest place ever man!!


ok lar thats all for now. hahaha writing crap most of the time. Just post for the sake of wanting to post something. forgive my randomness hahahahah



p/s : have a bet with sq - hopefully i can win my haagen daz!!

looking forward ------> after class hee hee